For some reason I awoke feeling really tired and nauseous – definitely
the worst I’d felt since the weekend and the anti-nausea tablets and
paracetamol didn’t seem to help at all.
However, there was no time for moping around as we had to be at the
hospital for 9am. I first went to have
the dressing changed on my PICC line by a nurse before having my bloods
taken. At this point I was feeling
really unwell and had to stop the nurse a few times as I felt feint whilst I
was sat in the chair. Thankfully I got
through this and proceeded to wait for my appointment with the consultant
Oncologist.
After a thankfully short wait (by this time I was becoming accustomed
to waiting times in terms of hours rather than minutes) I went in to see Dr
Stark who asked how I was getting on. I
said I’d struggled over the weekend and basically like I’d had the hangover
from hell. Obviously he was used to this
kind of update and said that unfortunately it’s just part of the side effects.
He asked if I’d had any other notable side effects, particularly
bleedings or fevers and thankfully I’d had neither of these. He then examined my chest using a stethoscope
to make sure my lungs were fit and ready for my first Bleomycin top up. Whilst Bleomycin is one of the key parts of
my chemo regime, it does come with some pretty significant risks regarding
short and long-term effects on my lungs, but these are all relative compared to
the reasons why I’m having this treatment in the first place.
I then headed to the ambulatory care unit ready for my
top-up. Unfortunately I had to wait an
hour and a half until a place become available.
I can accept this type of delay as the nurses have to do an amazing
juggling act dealing with all the patients who are dropping in and out during
the day to receive different treatments with no definite way of knowing when
they’ll turn up (as there’s a lag after patient’s clinical appointments). What does frustrate me though is having to
wait for appointments with the doctor, particularly when my 9.30am appointment
(the first of the day) was already late by over half an hour, which of course
then has a knock-on impact on all the other patient’s subsequent appointment
times. I don’t mean to come across as
whining in my complaining, but surely the department could come up with a more
efficient way of managing appointment times?
Listening to his story and how matter of fact and up-beat he was really made me stop and think. If ever I needed a reality check and a reminder of just how lucky I am, this was definitely it. For all the positive energy and upbeat thinking I've been trying to apply to treating my condition there have been many times when I've also drifted to thoughts of "why me? What have I done to deserve this?" However, having listened to this guy's story I made a vow to myself to never think like that again and to appreciate how lucky I am to have a positive prognosis and to have so much love and support from family and friends.
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